| [[the stars above have lost their shine.and so, my love, departs our sight]] |
[24 Aug 2005|05:51pm] |
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to all of the previous people that wanted me to addd you. hehehe. instead of replying back to all of you. I ADDED YOU GUYSS!!!
and for anyone else.. here is the newww name.
perfectionlostx
i bet you guys werent expecting that oneeee!!
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| this is a tessssst. |
[18 Aug 2005|09:20pm] |
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I GOT A NEW LIVEJOURNAL. IF YOU WANT TO BE ONE OF MY FRIENDSS. LET ME KNOW. OKAY. IT WILL BE FRIENDS ONLY.
I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO THIS ONE. MAYBE THIS ONEEE WILL SURVIVE. OKAY.
BYTHEWAY.
ITS AJ'S BIRTHDAY.
AND THAT KID IS
ACTUALLY THE MOST
AMAZING BOY IVE
EVER MET.
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| [[cause you know i change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me]] |
[04 Jul 2005|02:05pm] |
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armor for sleep - stay on the ground |
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i cant be upset for someone needing to change their life.
i cant be bitter because its not going my way.
so frank informed me last night that he moved.
and i spent the rest of the night in tears.
i just didnt understand.
and i still dont.
but. this is what he needed.
and i want the best for him.
so although i will be upset.
and although i will miss him.
miss him more than he knows.
its what he needs.
and im happy for that
and im happy for everything we had.
and for everything we will have.
they gave out liberrrrty hats today at the parade.
if my parents dont let me go to grand terrace tonight.
does someone else want to hang out?
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| hii. im alive. |
[27 Jun 2005|03:58pm] |
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its just not the same anymore.
good day.
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| somebody wake me. I MUST BE DREAMING. |
[11 Jun 2005|12:42am] |
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someone gave me this note today.
it was a note that someone found at school.
it was a note about me.
i read it.
and laughed.
and laughed.
and laughed.
and then i said something along the lines of bitch "sdgjdlgjkdh"
and then i pocketed the letter for further enjoyment.
hahaha. i laughed.
did you see that?
but tonight was fun. i love jason, jeff, isabel, karena, rosie, joanne.
more pictures tomorrow.
i'm in love. and sex is dirty. and my cough is terrible.
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| [[i know that you say this is what you get.. for being a bad child]] |
[09 Jun 2005|10:38pm] |
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i need to make it super abundantly clear...
i made up my mind today.
i am over it completely.
and im disgusted.
and i just cant deal with it.
frank made me happy all daay.
haa. im forever on my phone at schooool.
me and lauren went to wendysss at a double lunchh.
presentation went welll.
tomorrrow=last day of weeek.
final in economics.
easy.
im basically all done with school.
this is amazing.
today.
i love miss lauren.
i love miss isabel.
i love MY mister frank.
i love mister chris.
i love mister jason.
i love myself!
chris' game was exciting to the max. i didnt want to leaveeeeee. woooo.
i cant wait till saturday. i get my babe all tooooooo myself!!! YESSSS!! hopefully =(
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| she cried but no one came. |
[06 Jun 2005|10:06pm] |
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i love my best friend. |
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today.
i looked at him.
and felt it again.
gahhh.
in other news.
i hate people who lie.
who spread crap about me.
your life isnt my problem.
so stop including me in it.
AND DONT CALL ME YOUR FRIEND.
AND DONT WALK UP TO ME AT SCHOOL.
confessing love is hurtful and time consuming.
i miss isabel. and i wont see her till wednesday!!
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| [[the dumbing down of love. jaded in anger]] |
[30 May 2005|05:35pm] |
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so yesterday i went to huntington beach with the greatest boy in the world. i've never been so happy to have my phone ring at 2 am. </p>
we spent a lot of time just laying around. being silly. taking pictures. whispering sweet nothings. ha. i'm completely comfortable with him and i love it.
he said,"babe. you have the most beautiful eyes."
i missssed his eyes.
we walked along the water. holding hands. went to the little stores. decided to get married in italy. walked to the end of the pier. everyone was staring at the tough guy.<3 and we just stood their holding each other. watching the ocean. and the people. and each other.
remember the fat joe shirt. hahaha.
the sun was in our eyes.
beauty. i wanted to steal a boat and sail away.
i look gross. but i love his face.
the wind had his hair a mess. but i loved it. and spent all day playing with it.
i love how much he gets along with my dad. but i hate how mean my sisters can be to him. and i think frank started to feel bad for me. i guess he realizes what i go through everyday. lol.
i saw something to upset me. but i need to believe that its alll worth it.
after the beach. we went to this place to eat. and we had a talk. and i just know everything will be okay. because i love him and im almost positive that he loves me. lol<3
us at the restaurant making silly faces. these are from my phone so they got a little blurrrry cause i made them bigger.
i think that was suppose to be vogue status. hes soo cute.
i hated dropping him off. kissed in the car... cause my dad said we werent allowed to. hahaha. and then we hugged and kissed goodbye and i didnt want to let him go it made me very sad. and i really dont know how to not be sad. its only that i miss him. okays. so these pictures just made me miss him more. gahhh. okays.
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[30 May 2005|12:17am] |
thats basically it.
you cant promise forever if we dont even have today.
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| it feels like you're really here. |
[25 May 2005|09:25pm] |
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tsl.LOVEEEEE |
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me as a zombie.
bryan's finished project.
and i love it.
is that wrong?!
thoughts?
and im really really happy.
cause of something absolutely amazing that frank did.
isabel.
GOSSIP!
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| i will give my heart till the end of all time. |
[23 May 2005|09:05pm] |
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i think im in love.
something i havent wanted to admit.
but when someone is everything to you.
you are in love.
i'll get back to you on this one<3
but my head hurts.
and so does my stomach.
and so does my back.
but im happy.
i dont think im going to school tomorrow.
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| [[a note to self. i vow to purge you both of your warmest thoughts]] |
[22 May 2005|09:28pm] |
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the conversation was like...
i love you. i love you. i love you.
yes....yess.yesssss.
i love you. i love you. i lovvve you.
yes. yesss.YEESSSSSSS.
and then they slept together.
im not quite sure whether i like when i get drunken phone calls. they are funny to an extent. and then you hear the messages from when you turned off your phone and they make you sad.
this weekend was fun. i wasnt really home at all. but ill talk about that later.
i need to go answer my phone.
steven is callling.
no more shy.
boy: ive been dreaming of ur soft touch and ur beautiful eyes.
that made me gigggggle.
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| [[siren siren, don't do this dance in my ear. in fact i've already lost him once]] |
[21 May 2005|09:01am] |
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i'm just not going to let people take advantage of my kindness anymore.
i dont think im gonna be online this weekend.
and i think im gonna turn my phones off.
i need some "me" time.
i'm alone but its better this way.
he didnt do anything.
other then doing nothing.
and i just need more.
and until i decide to take my watch off, i'll still believe that we were just a matter of time, still getting older everyday, shout for shout sake
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| its not hard to fall, when you float like a cannonball. |
[19 May 2005|10:15pm] |
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today. one through fifteen.
1. i think i have a lung. infection. it honestly is hurting to breath.
2. i went out to lunch in a really fast car today. went to in and out with mario, bj and chris and i swear i havent laughed that much in a while.
3. i saw steven at school today, but i was too shy to talk to him. and he was too shy to talk to me. and now i am suppose to call him. GAH!
4. i think i should always say.. that i love isabel so much and i can honestly say that she is one of my best friends and we will be friends forever cause she is my other other half.
5. i fixed lauren's radio today. MUSIC NEVER SOUNDED SO GOOD.
6. people are trying to convince me to check out some shows this weekend. if i do. dont flatter. im going for my DDDREAAA and my JEFF and ISABEL!!!
7. photography was frustrating cause im smart, JUST NOT WITH PHOTOSHOP.
8. i absolutely hate the damn.. "look at this picture, is that you?" messages that are constantly being sent to my phone from justin russel. haha.
9. big fish and lauren and vinh are my favorite way to spend second period.
10. my mom bought me those senior flip flops.
11. me. lauren. chris. ricky. are best friends all this weekend.
12. i'm not going to miss people anymore. i have too many people in my life so i dont need any outside people.
13. me and lauren like to stare down justin in his truck.
14. higgs lives on the wild side, but we got out of the school before him.
15. i saw peter loza once today.
my dog is eating corn off the cob. shes a smart dog.
and i dont support this behavior.
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