?

Log in

sweet surrender's Journal [entries|friends|calendar]
sweet surrender

[ website | me ]
[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[[the stars above have lost their shine.and so, my love, departs our sight]] [24 Aug 2005|05:51pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

to all of the previous people that wanted me to addd you. hehehe. instead of replying back to all of you. I ADDED YOU GUYSS!!!

and for anyone else.. here is the newww name.

perfectionlostx


i bet you guys werent expecting that oneeee!!

1 kiss my imperfections

this is a tessssst. [18 Aug 2005|09:20pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

I GOT A NEW LIVEJOURNAL. IF YOU WANT TO BE ONE OF MY FRIENDSS. LET ME KNOW. OKAY. IT WILL BE FRIENDS ONLY.

I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO THIS ONE. MAYBE THIS ONEEE WILL SURVIVE. OKAY.


BYTHEWAY.
ITS AJ'S BIRTHDAY.
AND THAT KID IS
ACTUALLY THE MOST
AMAZING BOY IVE
EVER MET.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com

13 kiss my imperfections

YOU ARE SHITTY MCGEE., [05 Aug 2005|12:38pm]
[ mood | horny ]

AND THE TRIGGER PULLS.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
YOU CANT KILLHEROES.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
I WAS HOPING I COULD TELL YOU THIS WITH TWO FEET ON THE GROUND.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
BUT IM NOT VERY STABLE RIGHT NOW.


I WANT TO LICK YOUR FACE.

other than that. life is good.
friends are happy. i am happy. and i like
you.

4 kiss my imperfections

[30 Jul 2005|08:06am]
http://www.livejournal.com/users/_lipglossblack_/8370.html#cutid1

these are ideas of purses that i will makeee. uh huhhh.
this will happen next week. because aj is leaving all week
for northen california.. and omgg. last night just made
things 246864869835728368347 times better. hehe.
1 kiss my imperfections

[[i love that i cant get enough but i'd be lying if i said that i didnt expect it]] [28 Jul 2005|11:33pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
i hope you kick yourself and say..
"damn. i really lost my chance at being with a really amazing girl"


cause damn you lost your chance at being with a really amazing girl.

all because you are a fucking whore.who sleeps around with girls.
and then in turn lies to ally about it. soo ive come to realize
that i hate most boys because they do this exact thing.

but aj is sooo fun. and he makesme soo incredibly happy.
unofficial sweetness in a nice pretty box!!! he walks up to my door.
talks to my parents. and opens the car door for me. isnt this how it
is suppose to be? i thinkkkkk soo. hes sooo loverly.

sugar hill is my favorite plaaaceee.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
he was dancing. it was dark<3
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
skilled.x.gjdhgjfy


i liked these lyricss.
and i can still smell you on my sheet
and now i know what it feels like to be crushed
and now i know what it feels like to be a novelty
and now i know what it feels like to be drowned
by someone you love
its all over but im still choking on the lies

touche?

9 kiss my imperfections

[[you can't take a break when the pain of the world is weighing on your next decision]] [18 Jul 2005|02:29pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
so everything lately has become really confusing for me.
and ive become a little bit frustrated.



but despite all of the confusion. i am really happy.and blessed.



oh. and yes. i believe that july 14th was the most perfect
and special day in the world. because i met this amazing man.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
yes. that would be the most talented man alive. mister bryce avery of the rocket summer.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
and these woule be jamison and parker. cute.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
and the singer of houston calls. he started dancing for us after the show.. and then he came up to me and we talked. my friends said we were flirting.. but hey.. im just a nice girl<3 ha. i guess i did touch his face a couple times. haha.

and i spent it with the most amazing girls in the world.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
we first went down to newport. soo much fun.



a lot has been happening to me lately. but i dont really feel the need to talk about it anymore.



i really like him. but it cant work out.. can it?
i need someone who is there all the time. yeah?



i have to go to orientation for rcc on tuesday august 9th at 2pmm. uh huh.

5 kiss my imperfections

[[cause you know i change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me]] [04 Jul 2005|02:05pm]
[ mood | listless ]

i cant be upset for someone needing to change their life.
i cant be bitter because its not going my way.

so frank informed me last night that he moved.
and i spent the rest of the night in tears.
i just didnt understand.
and i still dont.

but. this is what he needed.
and i want the best for him.
so although i will be upset.
and although i will miss him.
miss him more than he knows.
its what he needs.
and im happy for that
and im happy for everything we had.
and for everything we will have.


they gave out liberrrrty hats today at the parade.


if my parents dont let me go to grand terrace tonight.
does someone else want to hang out?

1 kiss my imperfections

hii. im alive. [27 Jun 2005|03:58pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

its just not the same anymore.
good day.

my imperfections

somebody wake me. I MUST BE DREAMING. [11 Jun 2005|12:42am]
[ mood | geeky ]

someone gave me this note today.
it was a note that someone found at school.
it was a note about me.

i read it.
and laughed.
and laughed.
and laughed.
and then i said something along the lines of bitch "sdgjdlgjkdh"
and then i pocketed the letter for further enjoyment.



hahaha. i laughed.
did you see that?


but tonight was fun. i love jason, jeff, isabel, karena, rosie, joanne.


more pictures tomorrow.

i'm in love. and sex is dirty. and my cough is terrible.

2 kiss my imperfections

[[i know that you say this is what you get.. for being a bad child]] [09 Jun 2005|10:38pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Image hosted by Photobucket.com

i need to make it super abundantly clear...
i made up my mind today.
i am over it completely.
and im disgusted.
and i just cant deal with it.

frank made me happy all daay.
haa. im forever on my phone at schooool.
me and lauren went to wendysss at a double lunchh.
presentation went welll.


tomorrrow=last day of weeek.
final in economics.
easy.

im basically all done with school.
this is amazing.



today.
i love miss lauren.
i love miss isabel.
i love MY mister frank.
i love mister chris.
i love mister jason.
i love myself!

chris' game was exciting to the max. i didnt want to leaveeeeee. woooo.


i cant wait till saturday. i get my babe all tooooooo myself!!! YESSSS!! hopefully =(

2 kiss my imperfections

she cried but no one came. [06 Jun 2005|10:06pm]
[ mood | numb ]

Image hosted by Photobucket.com

today.
i looked at him.
and felt it again.
gahhh.



in other news.
i hate people who lie.
who spread crap about me.
your life isnt my problem.
so stop including me in it.
AND DONT CALL ME YOUR FRIEND.
AND DONT WALK UP TO ME AT SCHOOL.



confessing love is hurtful and time consuming.

i miss isabel. and i wont see her till wednesday!!

4 kiss my imperfections

i slept with the bunny and i liked it. [31 May 2005|10:08pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

ha. so today was probably one of thheeeee best days ever! i think this is exactly what senior year is suppppose to be like.!!

anyways. ITS MY BUNNY!!!

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
ITS CALLLLLLED FLYING! actually. it was more like balancing on jasons huge ass!!!
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
hahaha. i love theee two of you!!

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
we did a lot of madonnna poses today!!

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
my besttttttttest friend.


Image hosted by Photobucket.com
isabelllllllllllllllll sandwich.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
we ended it with a masssssage train.


muah ha ha! and then me and lauren made the most awesome video for our classsss. hahahahaha. im the star.


anyways. i hope your day was as good as mine. i love you all!!! and commment the picture!! hehe.

11 kiss my imperfections

[[the dumbing down of love. jaded in anger]] [30 May 2005|05:35pm]
[ mood | intimidated ]

so yesterday i went to huntington beach with the greatest boy in the world. i've never been so happy to have my phone ring at 2 am. </p>


we spent a lot of time just laying around. being silly. taking pictures. whispering sweet nothings. ha. i'm completely comfortable with him and i love it.


he said,"babe. you have the most beautiful eyes."

i missssed his eyes.

we walked along the water. holding hands. went to the little stores. decided to get married in italy. walked to the end of the pier. everyone was staring at the tough guy.<3 and we just stood their holding each other. watching the ocean. and the people. and each other.


remember the fat joe shirt. hahaha.



the sun was in our eyes.

beauty. i wanted to steal a boat and sail away.

i look gross. but i love his face.



the wind had his hair a mess. but i loved it. and spent all day playing with it.


i love how much he gets along with my dad. but i hate how mean my sisters can be to him. and i think frank started to feel bad for me. i guess he realizes what i go through everyday. lol.

i saw something to upset me. but i need to believe that its alll worth it.

after the beach. we went to this place to eat. and we had a talk. and i just know everything will be okay. because i love him and im almost positive that he loves me. lol<3

us at the restaurant making silly faces. these are from my phone so they got a little blurrrry cause i made them bigger.

i think that was suppose to be vogue status. hes soo cute.



i hated dropping him off. kissed in the car... cause my dad said we werent allowed to. hahaha. and then we hugged and kissed goodbye and i didnt want to let him go  it made me very sad. and i really dont know how to not be sad. its only that i miss him. okays. so these pictures just made me miss him more. gahhh. okays.


 

4 kiss my imperfections

[30 May 2005|12:17am]
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
thats basically it.



you cant promise forever if we dont even have today.
2 kiss my imperfections

it feels like you're really here. [25 May 2005|09:25pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

me as a zombie.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
bryan's finished project.
and i love it.
is that wrong?!

thoughts?



and im really really happy.
cause of something absolutely amazing that frank did.
isabel.
GOSSIP!

6 kiss my imperfections

i will give my heart till the end of all time. [23 May 2005|09:05pm]
[ mood | amazed ]

Image hosted by Photobucket.com

i think im in love.
something i havent wanted to admit.
but when someone is everything to you.
you are in love.






i'll get back to you on this one<3



but my head hurts.
and so does my stomach.
and so does my back.
but im happy.


i dont think im going to school tomorrow.

5 kiss my imperfections

[[a note to self. i vow to purge you both of your warmest thoughts]] [22 May 2005|09:28pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

the conversation was like...

i love you. i love you. i love you.
yes....yess.yesssss.
i love you. i love you. i lovvve you.
yes. yesss.YEESSSSSSS.

and then they slept together.





im not quite sure whether i like when i get drunken phone calls. they are funny to an extent. and then you hear the messages from when you turned off your phone and they make you sad.


this weekend was fun. i wasnt really home at all. but ill talk about that later.
i need to go answer my phone.
steven is callling.
no more shy.

boy: ive been dreaming of ur soft touch and ur beautiful eyes.
that made me gigggggle.

my imperfections

[[siren siren, don't do this dance in my ear. in fact i've already lost him once]] [21 May 2005|09:01am]
[ mood | alonee. ]

i'm just not going to let people take advantage of my kindness anymore.


i dont think im gonna be online this weekend.
and i think im gonna turn my phones off.
i need some "me" time.



i'm alone but its better this way.


he didnt do anything.
other then doing nothing.
and i just need more.


and until i decide to take my watch off, i'll still believe that we were just a matter of time, still getting older everyday, shout for shout sake

2 kiss my imperfections

its not hard to fall, when you float like a cannonball. [19 May 2005|10:15pm]
[ mood | listless ]

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
today. one through fifteen.

1. i think i have a lung. infection. it honestly is hurting to breath.
2. i went out to lunch in a really fast car today. went to in and out with mario, bj and chris and i swear i havent laughed that much in a while.
3. i saw steven at school today, but i was too shy to talk to him. and he was too shy to talk to me. and now i am suppose to call him. GAH!
4. i think i should always say.. that i love isabel so much and i can honestly say that she is one of my best friends and we will be friends forever cause she is my other other half.
5. i fixed lauren's radio today. MUSIC NEVER SOUNDED SO GOOD.
6. people are trying to convince me to check out some shows this weekend. if i do. dont flatter. im going for my DDDREAAA and my JEFF and ISABEL!!!
7. photography was frustrating cause im smart, JUST NOT WITH PHOTOSHOP.
8. i absolutely hate the damn.. "look at this picture, is that you?" messages that are constantly being sent to my phone from justin russel. haha.
9. big fish and lauren and vinh are my favorite way to spend second period.
10. my mom bought me those senior flip flops.
11. me. lauren. chris. ricky. are best friends all this weekend.
12. i'm not going to miss people anymore. i have too many people in my life so i dont need any outside people.
13. me and lauren like to stare down justin in his truck.
14. higgs lives on the wild side, but we got out of the school before him.
15. i saw peter loza once today.


my dog is eating corn off the cob. shes a smart dog.



and i dont support this behavior.

4 kiss my imperfections

THIS ENTRY WAS MADE SOULY FOR BRIAN JONES. [17 May 2005|10:55pm]
[ mood | dirty ]

Image hosted by Photobucket.com

i had two marriage proposals tonight.
what luck.

im better then this weekend. i gave my sister quite a scare. only a few people know about that. oh well. it happens.

yesterday. i had a two hour phone conversation with shawn. he is sooo amazing. and awesome. i was laughing the whole time. GRINDxKID! hang out soon, yes! and then i got my nails off. haha. they look gross. but better. and then i ended my day with a two hour phone conversation with my frank. we keep fighting cause we miss each other. GAH.

today. school is sooo dumb and easy. i wish i could just stop going.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
brian plus floor. and me plus skirt.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
and brian gave me a bird on my shoulder.

ME AND BRIAN HAD THE MOST AMAZING TALK AFTER FOURTH PERIOD. IT INVOLVED SLUTS. AND SEX. AND INNOCENCE. AND. UGLY PENISES. HAHA.

lauren and peter needed their time and i wanted to stay at the school anyways. i had my most awesome talk with jeffff. best friend. YES!!
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
talked with jeff and bryan all lunch. it was alllll about the boys. haha. jeff had a lot to catch up on.
in photography. i did this picture of justin. its funnnnny. really funnnny. haha.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
THREEEE OF THEEE MOST AMAZING PEOPLE IN THE WORLD!! AND YOU SHOULD BE JEALOUS THAT I KNOW THEM AND SOME OF YOU DONT!!!




side note.
think about it. first love isnt always the best love.
my word of advice..without having someone to give advice too.

4 kiss my imperfections

navigation
[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]